This was written upon finding out that my Grandma had chosen to Die with Dignity.. Flailing My emotions flailing, my mind racing Pacing, pacing, pacing I search my sole for the answers Why did you too have to get Cancer Are you weak or are you strong Before long you will be gone The future is in your hands Only you know where you stand I want to say don’t do it I want to kick and hit The choice is yours to make How much courage will it take Questions fill my head I can’t believe that is what was said You think you know the reasons You have seen so many more seasons Now your feet are planted Did I take our time left with you for granted To know what you will miss To know that it will be our last kiss You say goodnight and I say goodbye We are left to know you are going to die Are you weak or are you strong Knowing that you can’t hang on It breaks my heart to know you want to go When inside I know Is the choice your to make When our hearts will break Our loss is your gain You will no longer be in pain You know we forgive you We see your point of view Your life is in your hands Will you fill us in on your plans Do we get to know When you choose to go Are you going to ask us to be there To think we will know when and where I want to be thankful and forgive I also want you to live My heart and mind are torn I’m not sure how to feel about being warned To know when the day will come Your days will be done It makes my heart ach To know that everything is at stake We don’t need any more proof We no longer question the truth You were given a decision to make It still seems so fake As you lay down to sleep Only our memories we have to keep I think that you are stronger Knowing that you can’t go on any longer In my dreams you will visit In my heart you will sit Together you will be I’m sure you can’t wait to see Your sole mate has waited That I am sure you have hated Two hearts together at last So much time has past Waiting, waiting, waiting You have been fading Peace will soon come What is done will be done Together we will gather No place would we rather Smiles wet with tears Thankful for all our years We let you go in peace Our love will only increase - Sarah S. Price