Savor the Moment

Life has an amazing way of helping us forget the pain we have experienced in the past both physical and emotional. You forget the heartache and emptiness of loss, the pain of giving birth, the toe curling lighting that shot through your toes while trying to breastfeed your newborn. I am so very thankful to forget those moments and be left with the much brighter, vibrant, heartwarming moments of my newborn’s first smile, a two year olds attempt at singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and a welcome visit from a lost loved one in a dream so real that I wake up with a smile left upon my face and still warm from the love I still feel for them. One thing that has become far more apparent to me after becoming a mom is that life is too short and moves far too fast. I don’t have time for pain, remorse and regret. I must make time to learn from my mistakes and live each moment to its fullest in order to maintain those wonderful happy moments and not dwell on the past or wish I would have done things differently. A great friend once told me that she doesn’t care if my house isn’t clean; she still wants to visit and spend time with me. It takes a lot for me to not clean when I know stuff needs to get done but, I am not harmed in any way for coloring a little longer with my child or snuggling on the couch for a half hour instead of doing the dishes. Dishes and cleaning can wait, my child doesn’t mind at all and I should take notes from her more often. Children are so innocent and care free, I yearn for that freedom that adulthood has stolen from me. I make great effort to slow down and savor these moments as they fly by or next thing you know our kids don’t want to color with us or snuggle any more.